Sunday, February 27, 2005
omg!!!
week of o lvl's results...
and rumoured "4th March" a lvl's...
tummy cramp, brain cramp, heart cramp, eye cramp
arrrhhh!!!
urghhh!!!
im going to die
toooooooooooo scared
need to go pray for assurance
pls bring me through this...
i beg u...
just registered 3 of my students for ABRSM exams
used online registration
hope the master card number doesnt get hacked
another problem... hmm...
got to play for the ballet kids on 14 April
which means i have to take leave from my audit work on that day... hmm....
should take extra day off b4 the exam to practise for the kids...
if not, my lousy playing might affect their performance
haha
so scary...
everything is so cramped nowadays...
to think that i was complaining about whether i should take up the audit job one month ago...
guess right now, i havent regretted alot..
though it was really tiring at first, and is still tiring...
but!! i have learnt to cope wif all these!!
gave up some time for myself and tv
gave up my opportunity to be a more prominent ballet pianist
gave up my times wif friends and band mates
and gave up much of my health
i guess... life is like this... give and take.
u can never have everything in life right?
at least, im learning alot of new things in my auditting work.
not bad.
lolz
after one week of auditting, teaching and playing piano
im finally getting my few hours rest for myself
after that, its work again tmr.
lolz
idiot
no life
i hate it
but no choice
i chose it
lolz
hmph
i hate myself
pls let me get through this period...
*ahem*
12 March aka my students' theory exams at chai chee sec
wth
so ulu
haha~
all the best to them and myself
more extra lessons
Zzzzzz
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Monday, February 21, 2005
sianz...
slacking in work again...
using my collegue's notebook to type this entry...
hope the boss doesnt see me...
hahaha~
really need this break
too full after the CNY lunch
had to sit wif poon and li joon
soooooo scary!!!
luckily i didnt have to answer most of their qns
xiao yuen did all the talking for me
aiyah.. sad. trainees get bullied. cause no one wants to sit wif poon
so it leaves the trainees to be sacrificed
actually, poon is ok
but li joon... she is the worst.
guess i cant really say why
its jsut my sixth sense.
lolz
doing system south east audit.
so bored
so cold
and so sleepy
need to ZZzzzz
lunch was yummy
but eating wif the bosses were scary
haha
not so good experience eh
gtg and be a good girl
work
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Sunday, February 20, 2005
well... created a new blog to continue to spoon out all my thoughts...
ebloggy decided to play out on me... haha, something happened to the host. *shrugs*
went for the ntu talk today. a worthed well trip. realised that engineering isnt as bad as i thought. engineers seem to be still as important though civil engineers are no longer tt needed. haha~ material engineering looks fun too. i surely dont have interactive & innovative thinking. but im sure i can slowly cultivate those "wonderful" qualities if i get into material engineering. lolz~
accountancy. still as attractive to me. though my auditor job in BSL is slowly decaying this life-long dream, i will still give it a shot at accountancy IF i score well in A level's.
went for the talk wif shah and mun, very interesting. cause told mun tt aishah and veejay broke up. didnt expect such a strong reaction from her. guess she must be spreading it around now. all the best to veejay. haha~
felt really depressed when they started to talk about A level's. have been dreaming about A level's. cant remember wat i dream about. only can remember short excerpts from my nightmares.
omg, my A level's results are bound to be really.... disastrous.
really hope those nightmares wont be true.
if not, i might end my life...
i would rather die then to be like my sister
felt like crying when i reached the MRT station.
guess the accumulated memories at the MRT station really made me emotional
tried to withhold the aching feeling
but guess my heart just cant stop the pain
haiz...
results...
i think i will make a trip down to the temple to pray
need some support to make through this period of time
i know alot of pple will be experiencing the same thing
but i think, im not coping as well as those average pple
*pray hard*
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